it’s National Suicide Prevention Week, for all of you struggling may I say the most cliche words ever “it gets better” are cliche because they are true, you can and will win this battle. You matter, you always have and always will, just know we care, we all care, you deserve to live to see happier days and there are many of us here to help you get there. You are not what the kids at school called you. You are not the horrible words your mom or dad or brother or sister spit in your face. You are a beautiful human being. I get a lot of messages and can not help everyone but know I care, you all mean alot to me and I would never want any of you to think suicide is your only way out, because it is far from it. Stay strong, stay beautiful, stay alive <3
Hey, I know this might sound right to you, but you are worth something. You are incredibly valuable. You are worth so much, but you just don’t know it. People feed you all these lies about what you are not. They tell you all these lies about how you’re not good enough, how you’re not important, how fat you are, but I’m going to let you in on a little secret that you might not know. They don’t get to decide what you are worth. They don’t get to decide your value. The way they treat you doesn’t get to decide how much you’re worth. You really didn’t deserve any of it. You are worth something. In fact, you are worth so much that you are literally priceless. There is no way to put a value on you. You are unique. You are one of a kind. You literally are the only you in the world. You are the only you in the world. There is not, never was, and never will be another person just like you. A person with compassion, creativity, independent thought, and that’s worth something to this world. What happened to you was wrong. It really was wrong, but it’s time to forgive yourself. You are a wonderful person. You are amazing. You have so much potential to do good in this world. You have the power to inspire people with your story. You’re not just a victim. You’re not just a survivor. You’re not just a sad story. You were born to be a fighter and that’s exactly what you are. You are a warrior and you matter to this world. I don’t know if anyone will ever tell you this, so if not, let me be the first. You are important. What you’ve been through matters. You didn’t deserve what happened to you. You have potential in this world and I hope that someday you’ll be able to love yourself as much as you really deserve. I understand that life right now is shit. It completely sucks. Right now everything is too much and you don’t need more. You don’t need more reasons to hate yourself, for wanting to kill yourself. You don’t need more reasons to feel guilty. You already do that yourself don’t you? Right now everything just sucks. I get it, nobody gets it. Nobody understands that you cry yourself to sleep at night. Nobody knows why you self-harm on your arms, legs, belly, or wherever it is you self-harm. Nobody knows why you starve. Nobody knows why you’re depressed, because they’re not there. They are not living with you every single day. They’re not going through all the shit that you have to deal with all 365 days of the year. They’re not being bullied. Their parents aren’t getting separated. They don’t get it, no one does. No one ever gets it. I’m sorry that no one ever told you, no one ever gave a second thought, no one ever bothered to say,” Hey, are you okay?” Maybe they’re all just too busy trying to keep their head above water, because you don’t need water to feel like you’re drowning, do you? If there was a way that I could make your life better, I would. If there was a way that I could make it all just stop, I would, but I can’t. I’m sorry that I can’t make it better. The fact is, you’re going to have to wake up tomorrow and face the same thing you faced yesterday. I know that no matter what I say, life is still hell. I know that no matter what I say, your parents are still going to get separated. I know that no matter I say, your loved one won’t come back from the dead. School is still going to be hard. People are still going to bully you and I’m really sorry. You don’t deserve that. I know it feels like you do, but you don’t. You honestly don’t deserve any of that. It’s all just so wrong. We live in such a broken world and I don’t blame you for not wanting to be alive. I just wish that I can show you that there is hope. I wish I could show you how worth it, it is. Life is so worth it. Just please don’t leave, don’t go. Just hang on. Just do it for me, please? I mean just look at yourself for who you really are this time. You’re an amazing person. You’re incredible. There never was and never will be a person like you. Look at you, you’re brilliant. You’re magnificent. If only I was your friend, I would brag about you to everybody, because you are wonderful. I know you don’t see it sometimes, maybe you don’t see it right now, but you are. You are going to do great things. You’re going to do big things and sometimes you’re going to do little things, but no matter how small of a thing you do it still counts, you’re still going to change this world. You’re going to change the world, because your story is powerful, it’s going to touch the hearts of people. There’s no one out there that can ever replace you. There’s more than 7 billion people in this world, but the world would be worse off if you were gone. I don’t know what we would do without you. There are people out there that need you. Who’s going to be there for your friend who came to you for help if you’re not there? No one that’s who, because you were the only one they could trust. Look I know suicide looks as if it’s the only way out, but it’s not. You might say that no one is there for you, but I will be here for you always.. I care about you a lot. If you were ever to leave us I would be honestly devastated. I need you to listen to me. I want you to know that you matter. I’m being serious. You have to listen to me, because this might not be as deep as the other things I’ve normally said, right? But you have to get this one within. YOU MATTER! So maybe you need to stop reading this and you need to go look in the mirror and repeat what I’m saying, you, you, not your dreams, not your goals, you matter. Are you listening to me? I’m being serious. I’m discouraged a little bit, because I’m getting constant messages and emails about people thinking about committing suicide. People who are giving up in school. People that are giving up and giving in. They’re ready to leave work and end it all. You haven’t even fought yet. You haven’t even fought hard yet and you’re ready to give up. When someone mentions they want to kill themselves it kills me. Why? Because what happens is you guys don’t get it. You could be rejected by the guy of your dreams. You could say that you didn’t get into the college you wanted to. Or you didn’t become that great doctor you’ve always wanted to be. You’re telling me that you want to give up, but listen to me, your goals and your dreams are important. We are talking about an importance. Getting that four year degree. That master’s degree. Becoming a psychiatrist. Whatever it is. That stuff is important but it’s not as important as YOU! Listen to me I’m going to say it again and it might not be as deep as some of the other stuff I’ve said in the past, but this is probably the most important thing you will ever hear me say, YOU MATTER! Are you listening to me? Who you are matters. If you’re a sister. If you’re a leader. Listen to me if you’re a friend. If you’re a girlfriend. You have to understand that you matter. Are you listening to me? Older sister? You’re going to change your siblings life. How? By being the role model you’ve always been. Leader? If you’re not leading like you’re supposed to be doing then your younger siblings will fall down and get lost. As a friend? If you’re not there as a friend your friends aren’t going to be here any longer. Why? Because they trust you with their life. As a girlfriend. As a psychiatrist. As a counselor. You matter and who you are matters! Are you listening to me? You have to hear what I’m telling you. You matter. Who you are matters. What you do matters. Like don’t ever play the role of a sister or a daughter thinking that you’re insignificant, that you’re not important that you’re not valued, and your efforts are not valued. You matter, what you do matters. The way you study right now. The way you prepare right now. 15 years from now. What you are to be you are now becoming. If you’re going to be that great psychiatrist. That awesome mother of the kids you’ve always wanted. That great helper. That great student. Who you are matters and what you do matters. Don’t you know that I understand that every time I get behind this screen talking to all people like you that not only that I matter, but what I do matters? That’s why I try to help people every single day and there are thousands and thousands of people that I’ve helped that I will never meet. Thousands of people who’s lives have been changed from what I’ve thought them. What I’ve told them, and what I’ve showed them and I will never meet them, but it doesn’t matter, because I know what I do matters and who I am matters. You matter! So I need you to walk like you matter. Talk like you matter. Think like you matter. You matter! You are important! You are valuable. I don’t care what your older sister said to you. I don’t care if you were adopted. If you were abused or raped as a child and you’ve got a problem with that. I don’t care. Third time relapsing. I don’t care. You didn’t do well academically. So what? You, not your grades, not your degree, not your stuff. You as a human matter. Some people they are living in luxury, but they still have a low self esteem, because they haven’t realized that they matter. So do me a huge favor. You have to have a certain belief system. A certain belief in yourself. So you matter. There’s a quote that goes like this,” Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.” I’ve been reading some people’s asks and some of them have been saying that they’re frustrated, they can’t take another day, they can’t take another loss. Listen to me I’ve been reading that some of you are tired of life, I honestly know how you feel. Some of you are scared, some of you are hurt. Listen to me very closely. I need you to do me a favor. Listen to me don’t worry about what’s going to happen the rest of this year. Don’t even worry what’s going to happen this month. Today, can you just survive today? I need you to repeat these words I’m saying,” I CAN, I WILL, I MUST!” I want you to speak life into the thing that’s frustrating you. Speak life into death right now. Whatever your circumstances right now I need you to say, “I CAN RECOVER, I WILL RECOVER, I MUST RECOVER!” You have a purpose to live for, you have family to live for, you have millions of things to live for. I need you to look at depression eye to eye and tell it, ” I CAN GET THROUGH THIS, I WILL GET THROUGH THIS,I MUST GET THROUGH THIS!” You’re not through yet! Your life isn’t over yet. You have to yourself a huge favor, you just have to have that mindset. That positive mindset that you can make through whatever it is you’re going through. Something’s you just have to outlast. Every sleepless night, every day was hell, I OUTLASTED IT! There are some things in life you don’t need a degree for, no money for, no support for, there are something’s in life you’re just going to get through when you tell yourself that you can get through it. This is a message from me to you saying that YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS AND THEN SECOND YOU JUST HAVE TO OUTLAST STUFF. Look I might not be stronger, I might not be smarter, I might not be brighter, but I made up in mind I’m going to get through whatever it is I’m going through. You know why you aren’t successful? Because you keep giving up. You already put in a lot of effort, sweat, and tears and now you want to give up? Now you quit? Now you want to give up? Get something out of it. You mean to tell me you went through a lot of obstacles in life that were hard to get over and now you want to quit? You need to make up your mind that you are not going to give up, that you’re not going to quit. Listen to me, I ended up relapsing several times, but just because you relapsed does not make you a failure. Just because you lost does not make you a loser. What I did that most people don’t want to do is that I never gave up. Consistency, I just never quit. You have to say it with me, “I CAN, I WILL, I MUST.” I’m not saying it’s going to be easy, but it’s real simple. You can get through anything, you can make it through anything if you just say these words. I want you to look in the mirror and say, ” I AM A SURVIVOR” You can get through this. You just got to work a little harder, you just have to press a little deeper. Listen to me, don’t give up and don’t give in, and there will be nothing you can’t do. If it were easy everybody would do it. If you’re reading this, I know something about you. Weird isn’t it? I know you’re a survivor. I know you’re a warrior. I want you to get up and make the rest of your life the best of your life. I CAN, I WILL, I MUST! Oh what I would give to make you smile, to make you happy once again. Look at the way that you shine. Some people don’t really notice it, but I do. I can even see you shine without my glasses. There’s a light in you, there’ s a big shining light inside of you. You are a beautiful human being. I don’t just think that you’re beautiful, I know that you’re beautiful. You are gorgeous, lovely, and there are people out there that are going to notice that. Don’t be afraid when someone tells you you’re beautiful, believe them, because it’s true. You are going to do things that even amaze yourself. So keep going, because I’ll be cheering you on. Today is your day. You deserve a chance to shine. I know the world’s been unkind, go ahead and take your time. I know you’ve had enough and you’ve never gotten a break. Part of you knew that there was happiness out there, but it never came your way. But it didn’t knock you down, because you always had some hope there would be a batter day. I know that you deserve to smile, because you’ve been through a whole lot. Depression might of slowed you down, but you never once stopped. You would find your way home when you got a little lost. You would do it on your own. That’s why you made it, even when it’s tough you listened to your heart and you listened to your gut. That’s why you’re amazing, because you never gave up on life. You’ve been walking on a thin line all this time and not once have you fallen. You’ve been trying to balance everything, hoping you don’t choke. You’re smiling on the outside, but inside it’s cold. Even in your home it’s a battle zone, because everything you did wasn’t good enough for them. Nothing seems to fit and all the things you trusted in fell in the end. Somewhere inside of you, you know that the hard times won’t last. It can’t rain forever, can it? The sun has to pop up sooner or later, right? I don’t care what you’re going through right now, I need you to promise me that you’ll stay strong. That you won’t pick up the blade, lighter, scissors, knife, or whatever you’re using to take the pain away. Survive one more day for me, okay? You are perfectly imperfect, but that’s okay, because those imperfections are what make you up today. I don’t want any of you to suffer anymore. I don’t wish to take your pain away, because without that pain you wouldn’t be as strong as you are today. You’ve been strong for so long and that’s one of the bravest things you can do. Keep sticking to the fight, we all have it in us to do so. You will make it through, I promise. I love you so much. You have a purpose in this world, don’t ever think otherwise. I know that life may be hard, but trust me that life is worth living for. I understand that you have a lot you go through, but it’s no reason to ever give up. There may be times where you may feel that no one gets you. Where you have to fake a smile every day so people won’t know you’re hurting. Your happiness has faded with time. Life may be miserable right now, but that doesn’t give you reason to kill yourself. I promise you’ll get better, but just meet me halfway. There’s no doubt in my mind that you’ll make it. Things will get better, you just have to give it some time. Overcome that bump in the road and keep marching on. Put down your tool you use to hurt yourself and let’s talk things out. I know how it feels like to self-harm. I understand your reasons for doing it, but I want you to know that it’s not the right thing to do. When your tools seem to be whispering your name, know that I’m screaming yours at the top of my lungs because I love you and I don’t want you to harm yourself, ever. No one deserves to hurt themselves. Gather up all your tools and dispose of them safely. Each scar resembles a battle, a battle with the demons that tormented you every day. Don’t be ashamed of your battle wounds. Roll up your sleeves, take off the bracelets, put on some shorts, and stand up tall when walking. Stand with dignity and let the world see what you’ve been hiding all this time. Show them what true courage looks like. From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says I survived. Your scars are beautiful, but not everyone can see the true meaning of beauty. Just because someone chose not to see the beauty in them, it doesn’t make them ugly. Don’t be insecure about them, they’re all honestly beautiful. Scars are tattoos with much better and meaningful stories. Don’t you ever lose hope, because you never know what tomorrow will bring. Just keep holding on, because pain will eventually end. I’m glad that you still exist till this day. I hope that you’ll never give up and live happily ever after. The past may hurt, but learn from it instead of running away from all your problems. You shouldn’t dream of death, it isn’t how your story ends. Stop faking that smile and let your eyes tell your lies. It’ll be hard, but just give it a try. You might discover that life isn’t that bad, and hard. You get a gift everyday that perhaps you may have not noticed. You’ve been blessed with this gift ever since you were born. Treasure it forever until the day you die. Today you got another day to live, to breathe the air that surrounds you, another day to love those that are around you, and another day to continue to be the person you were meant to be. You may be feeling like you want to die, but in all honesty you really wish to be saved. There’s a reason why you’ve been holding on for so long, because you had some hope there would be at least one person out there in the world that could help you. Someone who would listen to you and not judge you for the past. Well I’m pleased to announce that this world still has some of the greatest, loving, caring, and supporting people that are dying to meet you and help you out in your time of need. I mean it from the bottom of my heart when I say that I love you and care about you more than you think. You honestly matter so much to me. Don’t ever think that you’re worthless, because I’m sure I speak for most people that we are all a BIG family and without you it wouldn’t be the same. When life knocks you down, just remember to look up, get up, and don’t you ever give up. Most of the times the harder you fall, the stronger you’ll get back up. Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, then it’s not the end. You know that organ in your body called the heart? It’s called purpose, don’t ever leave this world without knowing what yours was. As long as I’m here I will keep reminding you that you’re amazing, loving, nice, caring, beautiful, worthy, intelligent, sweet, kind, inspiring, a good friend, honest, and brave until one day you realize it yourself. You have the power to say,” This is not how my story will end.” So just keep swimming through all the experiences life puts you through. Keep struggling to stay afloat and don’t let anything anchor you down. Navigate yourself in the path that’s best for you. Don’t ever cry to give up or to quit. Cry to keep going in life. You’re already in pain, get a reward from it. Maybe that reward is called happiness. Don’t let the things in life that are out of your control determine whether or not your happy. There will be things you can’t change and you’ve got to live with. The choice that we have, is either to give up or keep on going. What are you going to believe? Are you going to believe in yourself? Or are you going to believe everybody else’s judgment on you? Whichever one you decide to believe in will determine your faith. There will be some times in life where you fall down and feel like you don’t have the strength to get back up. So you sort of put a mask on your face when you go outside to the world and pretend that everything is fine when it’s really not. Do you have hope to get back up and liberate yourself from depression? No, you don’t, because it should be impossible for you to get back up, right? But it’s really not. You could try thousands of times to get up and if you fail a thousand times and you give up, do you think that you’re ever going to get back up? No, but if you fail and try again? And again and again? For as long as you try there is always a possibility of you getting up. It’s not the end until you’ve given up. Just the fact that you’re still here, should persuade you that you have another chance to get back up. There’s still hope. I just want you to know that it’s not the end. It all comes down on how you’re going to finish. Are you going to finish strong? And you will find that strength to get back up. Stop taking the steps in the wrong direction that will take you away from your dreams. You have a choice to know which step you’re going to take today. Whatever you’ve ever gone through in the past can’t be altered with, but you can make sure what the future can and will be for you. Stop letting the past define that you’re weak, but let it mold you and grow stronger from it. Take the attacks that are hurled at you, throw them to the ground where they belong, and use them as a step stool to reach a higher point in your life. You really can’t take life for granted. You can’t wake up every morning saying that it’s going to be a bad day. You need to be waking up to embrace everything that you have. You need to understand the fact that you may not share the same skills as the person sitting next to you, but that’s what makes you, you. You have your talents while other people have theirs. I can tell you that people won’t always accept you and if they don’t? Screw them! You don’t need them. Maybe they won’t like you because of how you dress, how you look, how you act, or maybe even for how you talk. Every decision you make, you’ll get judged for it. Society will judge you whether or not they know you. They don’t know your life. They don’t know anything that’s going through your head, or what’s going on in your life when you get home. They may never know your story, you could look like the happiest person ever, and you could be wanting to kill yoursef. If they can’t accept you foe who you are or what you’ve done then leave them to judge for they don’t know what you’ve been through. You can let judgment define you, let it destroy you, or you can let it strengthen you. There’s plenty of people out there in the world who will love you for who you are. Not for your looks or anything else, but for being you. Somebody out there will always love you. Somebody does love you. There is someone out there who cares and understands exactly how you feel. This one special person will always have your back through everything in life. They won’t be able to fix every problem that you may have, but you wouldn’t have to face them on your own, because they’ll be with you through every step of the way. They may not be able to make the storm go away, but they will hold you and keep you warm until the storm passes. Relax and take everything one day at a time. You are worth so much more than a simple mistake, you are worth more than you might think. You are worth more than life itself to some people. If something ever happened to you they’d go berserk. Stop putting yourself down,because you honestly don’t deserve any of it. You might be going through the hardest time in your life right now, but you need to keep pushing forward. Things do get better. I know exactly how it feels like to be alone, uncared for,suicidal, but guess what? I’m still here fighting to go on with life and if I can do it than I know you can too. In no way am I trying to compare you to me, but I have faith that you’ll be able to pull through this and come out victorious. I can’t stress enough the fact that it’s not worth taking your life over something that’s not worth it. Not a girl, not a guy, not the fact that you just got raped, or the fact that your family just died, nothing is worth killing yourself over. You honestly don’t know how many people you’re hurting by not being here. I won’t ever judge you if you ever decided doing so, but that’s not the example I want you to take. There’s other ways out. There’s people that you can talk to. Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re a failure, that you shouldn’t be living in this world anymore. Believe in yourself. If you have a goal in mind that you want to do and others think you can’t? Show them that you can because you’re you. Show them that it could be done. Others may tell you that it’s impossible, but nothing is impossible. They’ll only tell you this because they can’t seem to do it themselves. So they tell anyone else who tries that they’ll fail. Never underestimate what you can do. Even if experts tell you that you can’t, it should only motivate you that much more to reaching that goal of yours. Don’t believe all the negative things people say about you. You are a beautiful human being. Fate doesn’t want you or anyone to die yet. So stand up and meet eye to eye with pain, and tell it to piss off. It’s time for you to be your own person and take on the world, but you haven’t just yet. Somewhere along the line, you changed. You stopped being you. You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you’re no good, and when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame. Like a big shadow. Let me tell you something that you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place. And I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is going to hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now if you know what you’re worth, now go out and get what you’re worth, but you have to be willing to take the hits and not pointing fingers, saying,” You ain’t where you want to be because of your family, your friends, or anybody!” Cowards do that, and I know that ain’t you. You’re better than that. I’m always going to love you no matter what, no matter what happens. But until you start believing in yourself, you ain’t going to have a life. Obviously life is very hard, especially when you’re a teenager, because everything just gets thrown at you at once. There’s school, parents, jobs, first relationships, girlfriends, boyfriends, self-esteem, bullying, sexuality, and all these things just come flying at you at once and it’s very overwhelming. Self-esteem is such an important thing in your teenage years and even after that. There is no such thing as an ugly person. If you feel ugly, believe me you are not. You are a beautiful human being. And looks are so irrelevant to life. Looks will not get you through life. Your personality, what’s inside will get you through life. If you are feeling down, go to real people first; your parents, while you may go through patches of hating them thinking they’re crap, your parents love you so much and they will always sit down and listen to what you have to say. People will always be willing to help, but real people such as your parents, siblings, and your friends will help you so much more. There’s so much to live for. The world is such a beautiful place to live in. Just know that you are not alone ever. I care about you and a lot of other people care about you. You are a fantastic human being. You have so much to live for. While these years in your life may be stressful and it may get you down, so much better things are ahead. We are very lucky to live in the world we live in. You’re alive, live like it. The climb may be very hard, but the view is great, I promise. Now I want you to strap on your armor and fight! Don’t let anyone ever bring you down. So drop the act making yourself seem okay, and let someone know how you’re truly feeling. Please take care of yourself. If you ever need anything and I mean ANYTHING then don’t hesitate to message me and I will try my best to help. You need to keep swimming just like Dory said from Finding Nemo. I don’t want to spoil the ending for you, but everything will be okay.
a stranger who cares c:
P.s: I don’t know if any of you self harm, but I put it anyways in case you do. Sorry if this was long, but I had to rant a little c: